第一篇：看“滴水湖畔”博客：新作小說(shuō)《光環(huán)》讀后感

看“滴水湖畔”博客：新作小說(shuō)《光環(huán)》讀后感

圖片來(lái)源滴水湖畔博客

幾天前，我看了好友滴水湖畔處女作：《光環(huán)》，并每集予以收藏，原想待短篇小說(shuō)刊登完后，裝訂成冊(cè)，分發(fā)給一些不會(huì)上網(wǎng)、或無(wú)條件上網(wǎng)的連隊(duì)知青朋友們傳閱，看“滴水湖畔”博客：新作小說(shuō)《光環(huán)》讀后感。本沒(méi)有寫(xiě)讀后感的打算，原因有二，一、我很欽佩作者的魄力和膽略，感謝作者以小說(shuō)的形式披露那一段不堪回首的歲月。其小說(shuō)歷史事件中的真實(shí)性勝于小說(shuō)的娛讀性，雖然作者將云南知青的悲愴故事，集中在“阿寶”一個(gè)人身上，并一再聲明，不要對(duì)號(hào)入座，如有雷同，純屬巧合，但我們還是看到了書(shū)中“阿寶”、“小周”、“害羞草”、“版納一棵草”等人物、場(chǎng)景，事態(tài)的演變過(guò)程和真實(shí)原型，無(wú)不在知青群體中忽隱忽現(xiàn)，其歷史性和真實(shí)性不容質(zhì)疑！

二、“阿寶”在那個(gè)年代，泯滅人性的發(fā)跡，以及“阿寶”在現(xiàn)實(shí)社會(huì)中不知反省過(guò)去的罪錯(cuò)，且又不甘心失落的一生，恰如其分地再現(xiàn)了“阿寶”時(shí)代的錯(cuò)覺(jué)及道德的淪喪。

很是擔(dān)心，曾經(jīng)心狠手辣、歇斯底里的“阿寶”看了小說(shuō)后，一時(shí)想不開(kāi)真的會(huì)重演從十八層高樓縱身跳下，以身謝罪，再現(xiàn)沒(méi)有刑律予以追究的非正常死亡，到時(shí)我們剩下的只有嘆息！

我想緘其三口，但還是坳不過(guò)昔日的知青朋友三番五次的電話催促，OUT般地談些體會(huì)，并借此把我們連隊(duì)（僅僅一個(gè)連隊(duì)）曾經(jīng)發(fā)生過(guò)的一些事件和各讀者交代一下，看看小說(shuō)：“光環(huán)”和其有否驚人的相似。

1970年4月28日，云南生產(chǎn)建設(shè)兵團(tuán)一師二團(tuán)七營(yíng)三連，聚集著上海知青84名，雖然曾是一個(gè)學(xué)校的同學(xué)、又是街坊鄰居，這群十六七歲涉世不深的少男少女們?cè)趶?qiáng)權(quán)政治、紅色恐怖下，演繹著各自苦澀人生，小說(shuō)中的“阿寶”很會(huì)適應(yīng)并利用當(dāng)時(shí)的極左環(huán)境。

一、1970年4月到連隊(duì)，半年后發(fā)生了現(xiàn)役軍人指導(dǎo)員施懷軍奸污上海女知青賈某，施被開(kāi)除黨籍、軍籍、移送軍事法庭，刑滿(mǎn)釋放后，又犯奸淫女護(hù)士罪被處以極刑。

二、1970年11月上海知青淡某因犯小錯(cuò)，被批斗關(guān)押兩天兩夜，棍棒皮帶抽打，嘶裂的嚎叫聲響徹云空，次日深夜，同伴黎某潛入關(guān)押點(diǎn)將其救出，并一同去師部告狀，讀后感《看“滴水湖畔”博客：新作小說(shuō)《光環(huán)》讀后感》。

三、1971年7月，上海女知青朱梅華，因唱所謂禁歌被押上臺(tái)批斗，污其資產(chǎn)階級(jí)思想，散布靡靡之音并剪去其頭發(fā)。

四、1972年9月，上海知青小周，因深夜思念病故亡父跪拜東方，批斗三日，返城前在其檔案內(nèi)記載著：“階級(jí)立場(chǎng)有問(wèn)題，不拜太陽(yáng)拜月亮”。

五、1973年6月，嵩某為主的上海知青五人，因不滿(mǎn)高壓管理頂撞干部，被當(dāng)場(chǎng)捆綁，現(xiàn)場(chǎng)批斗后陸續(xù)逃離連隊(duì)，返滬后一直未歸。

六、1974年4月2日21：30分，上海女知青朱梅華從宿舍去如廁，神秘失蹤，生不見(jiàn)人死不見(jiàn)尸，雖經(jīng)多方查找，至今了無(wú)音信，至此連隊(duì)女知青逃離大半，多數(shù)遠(yuǎn)嫁他鄉(xiāng)。

七、1974年6月，上海知青祝某，以朱梅華失蹤案嫌疑人身份被拘押，每日吊打，皮開(kāi)肉綻，視力青光，不堪忍受，自殺未果，被救后，繼續(xù)嚴(yán)刑逼供，案件不了了之，身心倍受摧殘。返滬后病故，享年42歲。

八、1975年5月，連隊(duì)指導(dǎo)員蔣井杉長(zhǎng)期奸淫其未成年侄女，東窗事發(fā)，雖將朱梅華失蹤案一并偵訊，卻未有進(jìn)展，草草判其七年徒刑了事。

九、1976年6月，重慶女知青常興亞和同鄉(xiāng)知青鄧某談戀愛(ài)，被小說(shuō)中的“阿寶”帶人深夜“捉奸”，不堪受辱后留下遺書(shū)，跳入紅寶水庫(kù)自盡，其母聞?dòng)嵑缶袷С！?/p>

十、1976年9月，上海知青趙某被污在“毛偉人”追悼會(huì)上發(fā)出冷笑，當(dāng)晚組織批斗，被其先行得知后僥幸逃脫。

知青的一頁(yè)，隨著歷史的篇章早已翻過(guò)，返城后，時(shí)間在沖淡一切，同時(shí)也沖淡了對(duì)“阿寶”的憎恨，因?yàn)槲覀兌家呀樦?。但“阿寶”的努力一直猶如水中月，開(kāi)公司破產(chǎn)了，留下了一屁股債，開(kāi)“書(shū)記棋牌室”，又被取締了，聽(tīng)“阿寶”說(shuō)最近準(zhǔn)備著書(shū)立傳，不知“阿寶”如何來(lái)評(píng)價(jià)自己曾經(jīng)輝煌的歷史。很會(huì)折騰的“阿寶”，依戀昔日的光環(huán)如同知青們?cè)馐艿目嚯y同樣不會(huì)被忘卻，何況四十年后的今天，仍有人在贊頌“文革”的必須和“上山下鄉(xiāng)”的必要，把云南孟定千萬(wàn)知青的抗?fàn)?，泣鬼神的驚天一跪，罔顧成扎根邊疆的“壯舉”，這不得不引起我們警覺(jué)，在涉及到常興亞先受辱、后恐嚇、再自盡的罪錯(cuò)問(wèn)題上，難怪“阿寶”毫無(wú)愧疚地告誡我們：“不要用現(xiàn)在的眼光來(lái)看過(guò)去的事，此事輪到誰(shuí)，云南知青干部都會(huì)這么干”，如此之言，不但褻瀆了早逝的亡靈，而且把知青中受人尊敬的一部分好的“阿寶”也拖入左的旋渦。

在現(xiàn)實(shí)中，有關(guān)“上山下鄉(xiāng)”遇難者的話題仍顯沉重，尤其涉及到左的路線導(dǎo)致非正常死亡，女知青受辱，群體遭受非人道的政治迫害，決不會(huì)在“阿寶”光環(huán)的照耀下而失去記憶，也不會(huì)依“阿寶”所渲染的“天下知青是一家”來(lái)得輕松，就像所謂祝賀“上山下鄉(xiāng)”四十周年的慶典上，酒未過(guò)三巡，年邁的知青們卻打成一團(tuán)，110出警、120救場(chǎng)，我想，作為組織者的“阿寶”心里很是疑惑：他們還在發(fā)泄舊日的怨憤？誰(shuí)之過(guò)??？“阿寶”？“上山下鄉(xiāng)”？反正，我們沒(méi)有頂著“帶血的光環(huán)”，生活在亡靈的追逐中……

2011年8月27日

第二篇：看《喜福會(huì)》小說(shuō)后的英文讀后感

The Reading Report about The Joy Luck Club

Reading the novel is not the first time of my knowing The Joy Luck Club.When I watched the film , the meaning of the title , the theme of the novel , the reason for the arrangement of stories from four mothers and their daughters and other important things were all unknown to me.But I knew that was my type for it is about feelings between mothers and daughters , and especially chinese speaking Eglish.Amy Tan , a Chinese American writer , is the author of the book in which she explors the mother-daughter relationships.Originally , the relationships between mother and daughter seem to be quite complex in a family but in Amy Tan's work , it is perfectly typical for its portrayal of conflicts between the traditional Chinese mothers speaking shabby English and the open wholly Americanized daughters who just wear a Chinese face but speak fluent English.I never think it is richly dramatical , and instead these kinds of conflicts , in fact , truly ecists in many Chinese immigrants' family.The novel is written impressively and deeply especially , I think , in understanding of mothers' love for their daughters for reasons that the previous experience of her with her mother provided the basis for her novel.It is said that the exprience of anthor is similar to that of Jingmei woo.Maybe , the novel implies the deep and complex feelings of auther for her mother and her closest relatives in China.It gives me a greatly deep impression that the book is begun with Feathers From a Thousand LI Away.It penetrates the mothers' hope and love for their daughters through a swan's feather.Through the old woman's words “In America I will have a daughter just like me.But over there nobody will say her worth is measured by the loudness of her husband's belch.Over there nobody will look down on her, because I will make her speak only perfect American English.And over there she will always be too full to swallow any sorrow!She will know my meaning, because I will give her this swan—a creature that became more than what was hoped for.” and the mothers' former tragic sufferings , we will find that all the mothers are in hope of their daughters never suffering from their sufferings.And the mothers waited, year after year, for the day , they could tell their daughters it is their hope through a feather of the swan in perfect American English.At first , it is a little difficult to understand the

reason for these words.However , through the whole novel , in fact , you will find the old woman represents the four mothers , the feather of swan embodies the hope of mothers for their daughters.These sentences show implicitly the feelings of author and her understandings for mothers.In fact , in the Joy Luck Club , the feather indeed is gained by Jingmei Woo.And from the beginning to the end ,the feather has been existing.Only if one high-quality novel , like a perfect verse , needs you spending much time reading once more , you will understand something.I thought that the novel is loosely plotted and is in disorder.But the fact verifies that I am wrong.Through the whole story , the novel begins with the death of Jingmei's mother and ends in Jingmei visiting China to see the twin-half sisters whom her mother had been forced to abandon when the Japanese attacked China many years ago.What's more , in detail , the stories of four mothers and four daughters have relative connections in theme about love between them and the mothers' hope for their daughters.And the theme shows the comflicts and harmonization between different cultures.Then I think why the author titled the novel “ Joy Luck Club ”.I am puzzled by it and the purpose of writer.The name of club made mention of by Jingmei's mother.And the author directly titling the novel the name of their meeting implies her feelings for her mother.I can guess that the title originated from a kind of hope or belief.According to mothers' former sufferings , they were not happy.Even at the present , all of them hides the previous tragic experiences.Maybe , the club is a place where they can pretend to be happy or avoid the past memory or worries or even the shock of culture.Reading the novel is as we are reading our life and then think our past , present and futere.Especially , the conflict between Waverly Jang and her mother impresses me most.Waverly is a woman who is quite independent-mined and intelligent , but her mother's constant criticism is terribly annoying.She once had a gift for international chess.however , when she realized her mother taking advantage of her achievement and talent to show off in public , especially to the strangers , she felt terribly ashamed and annoyed.She shouted to “ you can not make me ”.From then on , her mother felt cold at Waverly and were particularabout her favorite things.In

fact , I think Waverly felt sacred subconsciously at letting her mother down and something that she did was aimed at flattering her mother.When waverly brought her boyfriend , Rich , to her families , her mother just smiled but she still was particular about Rich's appearance , having many spots on his face.Description about the conflicts of manners between Chinese tradition and American notions has given me a greatly deep impression and quite interesting.These words of “ And then he had helped himself to big portions of the shrimp and snow peas , not realizing he should have taken only a polite spoonful, until everybody had had a morsel.” vividly express the American character of being casual which counts as discourtesy in China.The part of Rich criticizing her mother's cooking is quite funny and impressive.Our Chinese habit of making disparaging remarks seems to be extremely common.Being modest and avoiding showing off are parts of Chinese traditional manners.Her mother complaining about “ This dish not salty enough , no flavor ” , in fact , was a cue to eat some and proclaim it it the best she had ever made.But the Rich did not understand.From the following description of her mother being horrified , I judged that her mother was strongly objective against Rich and even their marriage.Waverly also had such an opinion.But I am wrong and from their conversation I understand something more important.Mother is the only one that understands their daughters or sons in the world.And none of the mothers do not love their children.And the heaty conversattion can make a strong bridge between the different generation or even the peonple from the different cultures.I find that if you would not like to tell your hearty words out , others are not able to know what you are and what you think.People each have different opinions about the same things.Waverly had thought that her mother disapproved of her marriage and hated her Rich.However , her mother's meaningful words surprised Waverly and even me.Just be particular about who I really care for and love.It occured to me that whoever we hurt is always who we really love for reasons that others would not care for our complaint.Yes , who will care for those who you do not love ? The answer is known by us fron the beginning to the end.It is the love for Waverly that her mother has been showing her.Waverly , a wholly Americanized girl , never trully knew her mother and was ignorant of the love

for her.Indeed , the language and the culture did make a great difference in the exchange of feelings , which is a terribly high barrier between Waverly and her mother , also between other three mothers and their daughters.But love and understandings , finally will prevail over others.Personally , through the whole novel , the conflict between mothers and daughters , virtually , is that of the cultures between the East and the West.Mothers represent the classic, traditional Chinese culture but the daughters are the symbol of just , free , open and modern American one , which are two kinds of contradictory elements.However , through the whole novel , it is easier to find that finally they can understand each other and be in harmony.When Jing-Mei saw her twin-half sisters , she was surprised at this kind of familiarity.“And now I also see what part of me is Chinese.It is so obvious.It is my family.It is in our blood.After all these years, it can finally be let go.” shows that Jing-Mei understood her mother's stubbornness and love and was struck by mother's greatness.The resolution of the contradiction shows that the cultures of the East and the West can be in harmony with each other.

第三篇：看《喜福會(huì)》小說(shuō)后的英文讀后感

The Reading Report about The Joy Luck Club Reading the novel is not the first time of my knowing The Joy Luck Club.When I watched the film , the meaning of the title , the theme of the novel , the reason for the arrangement of stories from four mothers and their daughters and other important things were all unknown to me.But I knew that was my type for it is about feelings between mothers and daughters , and especially chinese speaking Eglish.Amy Tan , a Chinese American writer , is the author of the book in which she explors the mother-daughter relationships.Originally , the relationships between mother and daughter seem to be quite complex in a family but in Amy Tan's work , it is perfectly typical for its portrayal of conflicts between the traditional Chinese mothers speaking shabby English and the open wholly Americanized daughters who just wear a Chinese face but speak fluent English.I never think it is richly dramatical , and instead these kinds of conflicts , in fact , truly ecists in many Chinese immigrants' family.The novel is written impressively and deeply especially , I think , in understanding of mothers' love for their daughters for reasons that the previous experience of her with her mother provided the basis for her novel.It is said that the exprience of anthor is similar to that of Jingmei woo.Maybe , the novel implies the deep and complex feelings of auther for her mother and her closest relatives in China.It gives me a greatly deep impression that the book is begun with Feathers From a Thousand LI Away.It penetrates the mothers' hope and love for their daughters through a swan's feather.Through the old woman's words “In America I will have a daughter just like me.But over there nobody will say her worth is measured by the loudness of her husband's belch.Over there nobody will look down on her, because I will make her speak only perfect American English.And over there she will always be too full to swallow any sorrow!She will know my meaning, because I will give her this swan—a creature that became more than what was hoped for.” and the mothers' former tragic sufferings , we will find that all the mothers are in hope of their daughters never suffering from their sufferings.And the mothers waited, year after year, for the day , they could tell their daughters it is their hope through a feather of the swan in perfect American English.At first , it is a little difficult to understand the reason for these words.However , through the whole novel , in fact , you will find the old woman represents the four mothers , the feather of swan embodies the hope of mothers for their daughters.These sentences show implicitly the feelings of author and her understandings for mothers.In fact , in the Joy Luck Club , the feather indeed is gained by Jingmei Woo.And from the beginning to the end ,the feather has been existing.Only if one high-quality novel , like a perfect verse , needs you spending much time reading once more , you will understand something.I thought that the novel is loosely plotted and is in disorder.But the fact verifies that I am wrong.Through the whole story , the novel begins with the death of Jingmei's mother and ends in Jingmei visiting China to see the twin-half sisters whom her mother had been forced to abandon when the Japanese attacked China many years ago.What's more , in detail , the stories of four mothers and four daughters have relative connections in theme about love between them and the mothers' hope for their daughters.And the theme shows the comflicts and harmonization between different cultures.Then I think why the author titled the novel “ Joy Luck Club ”.I am puzzled by it and the purpose of writer.The name of club made mention of by Jingmei's mother.And the author directly titling the novel the name of their meeting implies her feelings for her mother.I can guess that the title originated from a kind of hope or belief.According to mothers' former sufferings , they were not happy.Even at the present , all of them hides the previous tragic experiences.Maybe , the club is a place where they can pretend to be happy or avoid the past memory or worries or even the shock of culture.Reading the novel is as we are reading our life and then think our past , present and futere.Especially , the conflict between Waverly Jang and her mother impresses me most.Waverly is a woman who is quite independent-mined and intelligent , but her mother's constant criticism is terribly annoying.She once had a gift for international chess.however , when she realized her mother taking advantage of her achievement and talent to show off in public , especially to the strangers , she felt terribly ashamed and annoyed.She shouted to “ you can not make me ”.From then on , her mother felt cold at Waverly and were particularabout her favorite things.In fact , I think Waverly felt sacred subconsciously at letting her mother down and something that she did was aimed at flattering her mother.When waverly brought her boyfriend , Rich , to her families , her mother just smiled but she still was particular about Rich's appearance , having many spots on his face.Description about the conflicts of manners between Chinese tradition and American notions has given me a greatly deep impression and quite interesting.These words of “ And then he had helped himself to big portions of the shrimp and snow peas , not realizing he should have taken only a polite spoonful, until everybody had had a morsel.” vividly express the American character of being casual which counts as discourtesy in China.The part of Rich criticizing her mother's cooking is quite funny and impressive.Our Chinese habit of making disparaging remarks seems to be extremely common.Being modest and avoiding showing off are parts of Chinese traditional manners.Her mother complaining about “ This dish not salty enough , no flavor ” , in fact , was a cue to eat some and proclaim it it the best she had ever made.But the Rich did not understand.From the following description of her mother being horrified , I judged that her mother was strongly objective against Rich and even their marriage.Waverly also had such an opinion.But I am wrong and from their conversation I understand something more important.Mother is the only one that understands their daughters or sons in the world.And none of the mothers do not love their children.And the heaty conversattion can make a strong bridge between the different generation or even the peonple from the different cultures.I find that if you would not like to tell your hearty words out , others are not able to know what you are and what you think.People each have different opinions about the same things.Waverly had thought that her mother disapproved of her marriage and hated her Rich.However , her mother's meaningful words surprised Waverly and even me.Just be particular about who I really care for and love.It occured to me that whoever we hurt is always who we really love for reasons that others would not care for our complaint.Yes , who will care for those who you do not love ? The answer is known by us fron the beginning to the end.It is the love for Waverly that her mother has been showing her.Waverly , a wholly Americanized girl , never trully knew her mother and was ignorant of the love for her.Indeed , the language and the culture did make a great difference in the exchange of feelings , which is a terribly high barrier between Waverly and her mother , also between other three mothers and their daughters.But love and understandings , finally will prevail over others.Personally , through the whole novel , the conflict between mothers and daughters , virtually , is that of the cultures between the East and the West.Mothers represent the classic, traditional Chinese culture but the daughters are the symbol of just , free , open and modern American one , which are two kinds of contradictory elements.However , through the whole novel , it is easier to find that finally they can understand each other and be in harmony.When Jing-Mei saw her twin-half sisters , she was surprised at this kind of familiarity.“And now I also see what part of me is Chinese.It is so obvious.It is my family.It is in our blood.After all these years, it can finally be let go.” shows that Jing-Mei understood her mother's stubbornness and love and was struck by mother's greatness.The resolution of the contradiction shows that the cultures of the East and the West can be in harmony with each other.